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feed me prompts.
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I've been absent lately (again). This isn't just because of work and school, but also because I've been hitting a dry spell in terms of writing. I seem to have wiped out most of my demons when I wrote them into my book (which, incidentally, can be found here: leanpub.com/polarisisdead). So here's what I'm going to do. I'm opening up to prompts from everyone. It can be about anything under the sun. Note me, comment, whatever. Let's try to keep the prompts unique (don't just link me to entire lists of prompts because I tell you, I've bookmarked them all) and with a personal touch. I'll let you know when I've written anything worth something. And if I compile enough prompted poetry (read: more than 50, perhaps) I might turn it into a book. And if I do turn it into a book, and if I publish that book, I'll definitely credit everyone who gave me those lovely prompts. And get this! If you sent me a prompt and I put that poem in the book, I'll send you a free copy of the book. YES. That is a promise.
So please, please, please send me prompts.
So please, please, please send me prompts.
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Polaris is Dead (and other hurricanes)
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Hi, guys! So I don't know if you've heard (probably not) but my book is out! Right now it's on LeanPub, which is a pretty groovy site that hosts e-books. It's got some of the poems that I've already published here on dA (like
Seoulit was,
all too easy,
forgetting your name,
tasting the starlight tucked
behind someone else's
wisdom teeth ;
our soju-laced smiles
crashing at 90mph
and the memory of you
caught
in the headlights and
wreckage of us,
our 2am laughter
echoing in your bones
from 5654 miles away ;
my hands knowing
the age-old roads
that led to brand new places,
and the faded map of you
folded and kept hastily
in my back pocket.
(I was far too proud
to ask for directions
to come home)
chaos theoryI soaked your butterflies in vodka,
and buried them alive.
I planted yellow daisies in the 20-proof dirt
and waited for the sunshine
to make us all
golden.
Sometimes when the winds are angry where you are,
I think of your butterflies and wonder
if we're all still fighting to get out.
If they ever named a hurricane after me
I would call you up just to say
I told you so.
things you should've told me.1. You're going to be okay., a longer version of
2. I haven't forgiven myself yet, but I'm getting there.
3. You can't make homes out of people. You can't make poems out of them, either.
4. Whatever you want to believe, you should know you made me happy.
5. You were always beautiful, even though I never said it aloud.
6. Writing about you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
7. Tucked between my lungs is a memory of the day you first smiled at me.
8. It's funny when you realise that I'm an atheist, and goodbye used to mean God be with ye.
9. I don't know the words for the way I felt when you first called me handsome.
10. Sometimes I started fights just to see if I could make you leave.
11. I stopped loving you somewhere in between the third drink and the fourth.
12. I went home that night and I couldn't remember your face.
13. I never read your letters - it would have been too sad.
14. Boys should be allowed to cry in public, too.
15. I wasn't built to handle forevers.
16. I can't listen
couragethe day I realised, and of course, the title work,
I may never taste your mouth again,
I threw myself
into the first cigarette I could find,
sputtering through the smoke
and greedily inhaling my death wish.
today, my hands smell like nicotine
and lighter fluid ;
and I wonder, if you were aching
would you still let them hold you?
courage
isn’t always sacrifice -
sometimes it’s just alcohol,
or far too much loneliness,
or far too little.
I could have loved you forever,
if you’d been brave enough to let me.
Polaris is Dead.windbound,) as well as a bunch of brand-new, completely unpublished (and probably will never be dA-published) poems! It's not free, but then good art rarely is (and I need to make a living somehow, too). Plus, Leanpub has this nifty feature where it shows you how much I earn, and lets you decide (with a built-in minimum) how much you want to pay for the book. So if you're feeling generous, you can drag that slider all the way to 10! I haven't been super active lately (big surprise) but I've been dealing with school as well as working on some new poems because I figured I needed to gain some traction and write a new book as soon as I could. I'm also in the middle of figuring out the plot of a graphic novel that I want to write and illustrate myself, so that's taking up a considerable amount of time (partially because I also need to learn to draw for shit). All in all, very hectic schedule, but please understand that I do care very much about the art on here and the support you all have shown over the years. The link to the book is over here leanpub.com/polarisisdead . So please go show it some love, and even if you can't buy it, or aren't sure if you want to buy it, it would really mean so much to me if you could talk about it and try to gain it some attention! Every little bit helps. Thanks so much again, you all are lovely. Also, I used far too many parentheses in this journal, whoops.
we were caught and cornered,
keelsons crushed
underneath the weight
of rocks and hard places
and hurricanes
that tore us all but
apart -
in this and every maelstrom
we were just waiting
to crumble,
holding hands like they were
lifelines
and locking palms in prayer ;
we knew an introduction
to the edge of our little world was
inevitable,
and said our goodbyes
every time the ocean's belly
swelled with Neptune's angry squall,
our mouths filled with salt and
all the breathlessness that came
with keeping a weather eye
on that horizon.
you were the light of my life -
every smile a star
and every star a sentinel,
keeping us from keeling over
or charting courses
hellward bound ;
polaris,
that angel stern,
casting starshine
on every map and
on every midnight journey,
and making sure
we always knew
which way was north,
or a new world,
or danger,
or home.
but darling,
the storms got the best of us,
our little ship stricken
from bow to stern,
from mizzenmast to bowline,
ev
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DeviantArtist Questionnaire
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How long have you been on DeviantArt? - Around 5 years or so!
What does your username mean? - You know those gummy worms from Trolli? I love those. I could eat 'em all day. UwU
Describe yourself in three words. - Passionate. Loyal. Moody.
Are you left or right handed? - I'm right-handed!
What was your first deviation? - Oh, lord no. I don't even remember. Actually, I do. I think it was a song or rhyming poem of some kind and I know I used ellipsis and I am so glad that I've come so far and my soul cringes too much to talk about it any more. *shudder*
What is your favourite type of art to create? - Literature that speaks from the heart.
If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? - OH MY GOD WATERCOLOR PAINTING. YES. ALL THE WATERCOLORS. YES.
What was your first favourite? - This one! I still love it.
What type of art do you tend to favourite the most? - Literature, because I spend most of my time visiting literature-filled galleries.
Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist? - My best friend, lizilicious UwU
If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? - Everyone who's followed me from my first year and continued to support me. I love you all, always.
How has a fellow deviant impacted your life? - A lot of people have given me quite constructive comments on what techniques I should use or given me suggestions to lovely works of art that have made my heart grow. dA always continues to inspire and impact my life, and therefore my art.
What are your preferred tools to create art? - Pen and ink! Or, screen and keyboard.
What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? - My bedroom, in the dead of the night. With a nutella sandwich on a saucer beside me and Coldplay blasting into my ears.
What is your favourite DeviantArt memory? - The first time I ever got a Daily Deviation. It was for Up and Apart I wasn't even expecting it, I swear. I was so happy and so shocked and so grateful. I still am. I will always be. Thank you for everything, deviantArt!
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.. I make promises I don't always keep.
So hi! It's been a while since I properly wrote a journal here. Been a while since I've been active here at all, actually. And I'm sorry for that. I keep making excuses, and as long as I'm in college and collapsing from the requirements (Architecture school is a biiitch) I won't be able to post too ~regularly.
I do have some news though! I'm slowly getting over the Horrible Mess that happened in my life last August, and I've gained weight back to a healthy (sort of) 90 pounds. I've also drastically lessened the smoking (which I started last November) to the point of almost-might-as-well-probably quitting, and the last time I cut myself was in October.
I've also got two new things: A book I'm publishing (with the help of my parents) that has many new poems and some old ones from on here, and a new twitter account for my writing. The things I'm tweeting will either be snippets of new poems, or prompts that I've found all over. Give it some love? twitter.com/neonscribbles
I miss the community over here at dA. One of these days I need to take a week-long break just to immerse myself here again. But until then, I adore you all. Leave a message because goddamn, it is lonely here in the rain.
So hi! It's been a while since I properly wrote a journal here. Been a while since I've been active here at all, actually. And I'm sorry for that. I keep making excuses, and as long as I'm in college and collapsing from the requirements (Architecture school is a biiitch) I won't be able to post too ~regularly.
I do have some news though! I'm slowly getting over the Horrible Mess that happened in my life last August, and I've gained weight back to a healthy (sort of) 90 pounds. I've also drastically lessened the smoking (which I started last November) to the point of almost-might-as-well-probably quitting, and the last time I cut myself was in October.
I've also got two new things: A book I'm publishing (with the help of my parents) that has many new poems and some old ones from on here, and a new twitter account for my writing. The things I'm tweeting will either be snippets of new poems, or prompts that I've found all over. Give it some love? twitter.com/neonscribbles
I miss the community over here at dA. One of these days I need to take a week-long break just to immerse myself here again. But until then, I adore you all. Leave a message because goddamn, it is lonely here in the rain.
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Christmas Break!
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Firstly, I'll have you all know that I'm posting this using the new dA app (the official one) and it is fabulous, and I mean FABULOUS. It's so sleek and brilliant and goddamn, do I love it. It makes me wish I could come up with art all the time just so I had an excuse to use it. That's how lovely it is, I swear. 
But anyway, moving on!
My Christmas break officially begins today, and that means one thing: time! Time to reply to all the comments and send out all the thank-you llamas and write all the words. It's also time to apologize once more for not keeping my promise of being active again (I really have been quite sick lately and so very busy with school) and once more to promise that this time, yes, definitely this time, if there are still any of you out there who actually wait for my work to pop up once in a while, this time it's real. I will write. And if anyone still wants to collaborate with a crazy nineteen year old who uses too many metaphors and not enough stories, then please send me a note or something.
Also if any of you are in Manila for December, let's hang out. I know places.
:sad: Please forgive me. Oh, and the app really is so beautiful.
But anyway, moving on!
My Christmas break officially begins today, and that means one thing: time! Time to reply to all the comments and send out all the thank-you llamas and write all the words. It's also time to apologize once more for not keeping my promise of being active again (I really have been quite sick lately and so very busy with school) and once more to promise that this time, yes, definitely this time, if there are still any of you out there who actually wait for my work to pop up once in a while, this time it's real. I will write. And if anyone still wants to collaborate with a crazy nineteen year old who uses too many metaphors and not enough stories, then please send me a note or something.
Also if any of you are in Manila for December, let's hang out. I know places.
:sad: Please forgive me. Oh, and the app really is so beautiful.
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